[the person within Kit, the one who held both his ugly past and all the frailties that he was so terrified of another person so much as brushing up against. it was clear that this whole thing had been about personal validation, and that understanding tints Vincent's gaze with faint cynicism as he finally cants his head to look his companion's way.]
The only thing you won was another illusion. You're still not in control.
[he doubts that he'll believe him, but that doesn't matter. it was the truth, and someone had to say it eventually.
the way he was now, constantly haunted by a specter he refused to neither fully fight nor embrace, Kit was beyond neutered. there was no future for someone so carefully cultivated to avoid deep self-reflection. he barely even had a present.
he could gamble all he liked, but the person determining the bets was that shadowy self. there was nothing to be won and only more of his own self to lose.]
no subject
[the person within Kit, the one who held both his ugly past and all the frailties that he was so terrified of another person so much as brushing up against. it was clear that this whole thing had been about personal validation, and that understanding tints Vincent's gaze with faint cynicism as he finally cants his head to look his companion's way.]
The only thing you won was another illusion. You're still not in control.
[he doubts that he'll believe him, but that doesn't matter. it was the truth, and someone had to say it eventually.
the way he was now, constantly haunted by a specter he refused to neither fully fight nor embrace, Kit was beyond neutered. there was no future for someone so carefully cultivated to avoid deep self-reflection. he barely even had a present.
he could gamble all he liked, but the person determining the bets was that shadowy self. there was nothing to be won and only more of his own self to lose.]